Fridays I'm In Love

Hehz... no, nothing abt love... just thinking abt the song... since its friday... Mebbe I'll put it up tonight. =)

Here I am, in the office on a friday morning, more than an hour early. But I do enjoy the peace and quiet it offers me... esp after yesterday's trauma of working the whole day alone cos everyone else is on off, MC, or in training.

Its been a pretty fast week... starting with some guys going off on training, but a newcomer coming in. Yesterday was Weixiu's birthday, and I was helping Kevin co-ordinate her birthday surprise in the office. So there've been my fair share of things to keep me occupied...

I've been feeling so exhausted lately from the flurry of things. Was supposed to have a rehearsal last night for Wendy's function next wk, but turned out that the actual thing falls on the same day as my sis's wedding rehearsal, so I had to cancel. Felt pretty bad... Speaking of which, I have yet to pick a song to sing. Shit man. I only seem to be able to think of goofy funny songs. And if I ever do something like that, I'll never be able to go home again after that.

My knee's really bad also, for some reason. Didn't run on sunday, feeling really lethargic now... I think this week die die als must run already... I need to work out a little, just to limber up a little man.. feeling like a slug now.

A really big slug.

A really really large slug.

A really really really large slug that isn't moving much...

Erm, you get the picture...

Of course, my buddy ain't having the best of times in his life. (Then again, I can't remember the last time he wasn't in the midst of one crisis, moving into another one. At least this time round I'm happy for him. Grins.) Between work and lessons, I guess its easy to drown out our thoughts with things that tire us out... And even as he struggles to cope with his... loss (was tempted to putdown 'gain' instead), I'm also trying my best to muster the strength to adjust myself to the rigours of having to study after working hours. Its pretty tortuous.

Found out a lotta things lately what's going on in a few pple's r/s, crushes on pple... budding romances... lost oportunities... tough decisions... I guess its the only thing left that's keeping me alive. Not that I'm gloating and feeding off other pple's misery, or that I'm so mean as to find joy in what they're going through, but there's a part of me that looks at all that's going on with a great deal of amusement.

We're all such strange creatures, living in such a paradoxical existence. We want to use our heads to make decisions about the heart, then wonder why we don't feel anything. We enjoy the ambiguity of a friendship, yet demand (at least to ourselves) that lines be so clearly drawn that the friendship itself is no longer alive. And for me, sometimes its so tempting to draw away when getting close to someone, yet the yearning at the same time to get even close than I've already come.

Whatever the case, its fri... another week has come and gone. I think I'm playing for Bernice this week... Hope I do better than I did last week. Hehz... Stupid Mingyang actually taped the worship, so I'm gonna have to endure hearing myself play.... Help.