Buzz Off...

Hehz... the title's in honor of all that's going on in my life now. From my boyfriend who's buzzing off to Sydney, to Ruth's parents who are telling me to buzz off their daughter, to my own darling sister who told me to buzz off the TV couch and sit on the floor... so that SHE gets to be the one on the couch. Muahahahaha... the bumblebee analogy couldn't have come at a more apt time. Grins. Of course, add on the fact that when I visited the rehearsals tonight in church, everyone was shocked to see me, and was telling me to buzz off and study. Ha. And coming home again so late at night, I get to tell Ruth to buzz off my blog and those pics of my girlfriend. Muahahahaha.... yeah, Ruth's the name of my Schizo Manifesto. In my manic depressive state, I've reverted to the mentality of a 5 yr old.

Grins.

Dammit. I'm bloody lame. Nuckin' Futs.

Muahahahaha...

*winks*

Anyway, just jotting down another of my now-brilliant-to-me-but-tomorrow-will-look-super-moronic-and-lame thought. Was pondering abt the idea that God gave each of us different aptitudes. These aptitudes we label as gifts. So some of us play, some of us dance, some of us just make noise. Others are gifted in teaching, in preaching, in caring, blah blah blah... And so in the parable of the talents, we're told that it's not important how many gifts we're given, but that we be faithful in making sure we're fruitful in utilising those gifts, to the glory of God. And for those gifts that we don't have, we shouldn't have to worry too much abt it.

So here's my question, always seeking to blame something or someone else for my lack for discipline - so why can't the ability to dscipline myself be an aptitude? Some guys just naturally seem to have a better grip on themselves. (No Paul, not THAT way.) And so if discipline is actually an aptitude, why the hell am I being judged for not having the ability to control myself or nurture myself better than others? Isn't it almost like holding me accountable for not being able to sing like Pavarotti in service? (Tho I think if I were to sing like Pavarotti in service, I'd prob deserve to go to hell for rupturing everyone's eardrums.)

And if discipline ain't an aptitude that someone's born with, what the hell is it? Why do some find it easier to discipline themselves than others?

Man, I'm so brilliant sometimes I think I'm almost jealous of myself.

Muahahaha.... now, if only I could transfer some of my brilliance to my real life, so that next year at this time, I don't forget my dad's birthday like I did today.

Yeah. I did.

Amazing huh?

Nah... prob not. Gonna wake up a moron anyway.

=)