Sleep Deprivation Is Not Funny

No, its not.

And its the same old story here, on a sunday morning, where I need to wake up in a few hour's time to first lead worship, then lead cell bible stury, then go for my customary sunday 5km run.

SSSIIIIIIGGGGGHHHHH....

Its been a pretty eventful weekend so far. Went down to Syl's house on fri morning, supposed to wait with her for the pest control guy to show up at her house, which he never did. But we had a pretty good chat that morning. Its been a while since we had a good talk, and so that was a good morning. Met Sophie for lunch after that, and come to think of it all, its prob been more than 3 years since we last sat down to catch up. Man, time really flies. Met Weiling, another long-time friend by chance in the late evening after class, and we chatted for a while. Sadly, the very next morning I received news about her again - her dad just passed away from cancer in the early morning. Was a little freaked out by it, since she had only just contemplated out loud the night before whether or not to go visit her dad at the hospital.

This morning we played badminton, where Huilin actually showed up. Another rare appearance by old friends of mine. Went for the CF training after that, where today on 3 girls showed up. But we had a pretty good discussion together, and I'm actually glad to be getting to know a very different crowd from the one I'm used to in church. After that, we had core group meeting, then I met up with Daoxing, Ruth and Minghui for dinner, cos they all were near church. And then... *drumroll* ... we bumped into Grace, also having dinner at Paradiz, and she was with a guy!!!! *gasp*

Grins.

I think if she really did get attached, it'll actually be a load off my mind, knowing that it closes the relationship we had at yet another level. And it also serves as a reminder that I had better do something about myself, and land the dream babe of my... err... dreams.

Tee hee.

Was doing a couple of quizes of my friends the other day, and both of them had listed their greatest ambitions as being the loving wife and mother of someone. Hahahaha... Riiight.

I remember musing to myself awhile ago, just how easily we forget the standards we set for ourselves. We start off telling ourselves that love ought to be unconditional. Not based on looks, material wealth, or any form of external attributes. Then we look around ourselves and see that its impossible to do that. So from altruism we step aside to make way for pragmatism. We plan for our futures, and try our best to secure our futures when deciding who to end up with. Then we look at all the failed marriages of our parents, and realizes pragmatism works in a business partnership, not a marriage. So we tell ourselves to go for what really matters - that she loves me, and I love her. That she proves to be faithful, and he proves to be steadfast. And for a while, we bask in the belief that we've found what really matters.

Those who actually get that far are already few and far between. Most would have just settled for something less, and convined themselves that they're only living in "the real world". Funny thing is, of the rare few who have ventured thus far in the quest for love, they soon start forgetting what its all about. "As long as you truly loves me" becomes gradually replaced with "If you loved me, you would...", and we begin to place expectations on each other, whether consciously or sub-consciously. So we start thinking to ourselves "If I'm gonna spend the rest of my life with her, she'd better... ... otherwise it would only result in... ..." So we justify our expectations again with pragmatism, and wonder why we are again disappointed when the love we thought we found again falls short.

Funny creatures, we all are...

Chelsea just beat Bolton to register their first League Title in 50 years. Damn. Don't get me wrong, they have a really solid team, and probably deserved to win. But I just can't wait to see the day someone wipes the smirk off Mourinho's face, arrogant prick that he is.

I'm aching slightly from this morning's badminton, and I still have a big big blister on the second toe of my left feet. Hope I can actually run tmr... I already didn't do it last week. Can't miss these runs anymore. Running outta time man...

Oh by the way, remember the quiz I mentioned?

Syl sugested I post it here, and so I shall after all.


http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050429004203-538020

Have a go... and just dun start leaving comments all over here again to complain about the questions, or to just take a shot at me.

Bleah.