Happy New Year

So here I am, abt 15 mins away from the new yr, blogging from my cousin's computer in Kembangan. Didn't particularly feel like sitting down to watch TV, so just chilled out in their study room.

Went down to Changi hospital yesterday to visit Baoyu. Well, her mom, actually. Her dad had just been discharged from the hospital for a lack of blood, when her mom got admitted for an acute stroke. Its times like this when I step back and once again the strength of character and faith that she has in meeting the difficulties that she's facing really strikes me. But at the same time, its really hard to see her in the shape that she's in, with all that's happening to her... esp in light of what she shared with us about her stress at work, and her worry over her family. Barely two months later, she's now hit with a tonne of bricks. Sheesh.

Well, on a lighter note, I passed my driving this morning. Hehz... Its amazing stuff man. Honestly thought I'd fail. One of the few things in my life where I can honestly say with no reservation and no hint of fasle modesty, that I passed by God's grace alone. Hehz... Man, with the sort of mistakes that I made and all, I really didn't know how I did it. Rather guiltily, I realized that I was so nervous before the test, and I kept praying that I'd pass. The test itself was a nightmare, esp cos I actually made a lot of mistakes. Yet when I passed, I was so busy messaging pple that it was some time later when I settled down to thank God. Hehz... Talk about the only one out of ten who returned to thank Jesus. Hmm.. mebbe if Jesus had stuck around longer... hehz...

Met up at 1 with Henry for lunch, we stayed back to talk until 5 plus... hehz... amazing... We were talking about a lotta stuff, from how our church lacked a real model of discipleship in the sense of really investing into people's lives. I feel that esp in the context of our church, its so easy to substitude discipleship and the mentoring of one's life with mere BS, asuming very falsely that good BS would naturally change a person's life. So we all take the easy way out, thinking that if we handled the Word of God properly, then we are not at fault when a person doesn't change - the person is merely stubborn and hardening himself against God. I was telling Henry that I honestly felt tha's the reason why our church all end up growing very cold and detached, because ten years later after the passion of youth in our fellowship dies down, we realise that the only thing holding us together is mere head knowledge. There was no real relating taking place at all.

We also shared about how God is a God of communion, and we being made in the image of God all reflect that. I was telling him that in light of a few friends sharing with me their apparent gift of celibacy, I was getting really skeptical about whether that gift really exists. After all, if God's very nature is communion, why would He bestow a gift that's contrary to that? I mean, I can understand some peopel chooseing to remain single, denying themselves of the pleasures of marriage and the joy it brings, for what they deem a higher call. I can understand some people's preference for singlehood. I can even understand some people's inability to relate properly and thus shunning the intimacy that marriage brings. But I really dun see how God would actually bestow a gift that's contrary to His nature. For many of those who prefess to have this 'gift', their profession of such seems to be more a means to lend some legitimacy to what they've chosen to do.

Hehz...

Anyway, was a little shocked when Grace got word that I passed my driving today, and messaged me just now. Dunno what to say. I mean, I tried to make peace with her and to try to salvage the friendship. But when she didn't even dare to say hi to me in front of Andrew that night when I saw her, I just really didn't want to have anything more to do with her. But I guess when she congratulates me for passing, "Its none of your buisness" isn't the nicest reply to give la. So I just wussed out, thanking her and wishing her Happy New Yr in return. Hehz... Shit man. I can be so lame sometimes. Can't even decide if I'm pissed at her, or if I can't be bothered at all.

Gonna have a whole host of lunch and dinner appointments in the next few days. Time to start wearing all those looser pants and pray that somehow in the course of working and studying, I can shed all those extra pounds. I mean, men have to really exercise like mad to lose all that unwanted fat. Women have it so much easier - just divorce him.

Muahahahahahaha...

Grins. Anyway, its 2 more minutes to the New Yr. Better run.

Happy New Yr, one and all!!!