Sucky Wednesday

Woke up to the news that not only has Manchester United crashed out of the Champions League to Milan (expected), Chelsea thrashed Barcelona 4-2 to progress into the next round (totally unexpected). Man, talk about rubbing salt into the wound. And talk about a sucky way to wake up in the morning.

My sis returned yesterday from Greece, and so we spent the day more or less out having meals and just hearing what she had to say abt the place. Ended up talking abt what's gonna happen after she gets married. Sigh. I know I've said this a couple of million times, but every now and then I get the same epiphany-esque feeling of really having grown up now. The days when I was still 16 looking to life as a young man in my early twenties are over. Now what's left are the days approaching 30 where I start wondering where my life is going to lead to. With Xianghui getting married next Jan, Jing and Jo also looking for a flat, Desmond and Lindy engaged, Aaron getting married next year along with Huifen and Mervin... man.

And those are just the ones I can remember off-hand right now.

Yesterday my family went down to visit Serene's mom at Tan Tock Seng, after she fell and broke her wrist. Hehz... man, it was quite an eye-opener to hear her recount everything from how she fell until the time she ultimately ended up warded at TTSH. She actually drove from her school to the polyclinic to see the doc, before being tld she needs to be operated on. So she drove home first to park her car (broken write and hurt pelvic no less...) before (get this) taking a bus to TTSH from her home. Man, that lady is one tough cookie. And to think that when we went to see her, she was in really pretty good spirits. Lotsa people visiting her.

But I guess its pretty tough on the Lim family, with even more of the family responsibilities now falling on Serene, since she's now the one who will have to take up responsibilities as the "interim-dowager" of the home in the absence of her mom. Hehz... Syl doesn't sound like she's doing too well at the moment as well. Ah well. For that matter, NO ONE seems to be doing pretty well.

Paul's fren from QBC suddenly passed away leaving behind a pretty young family. Not to make light of the situation, but I can't help thinking what a mercy that would have been to me if I was the one who went. After all, my family and friends are the ones picking up the pieces when I'm gone, while I'd have DEFINITELY gotten the sweeter end of the lollipop. But still, times like this are like a certain brat who talked abt how fragile life can be on her blog, tag boxes and all. *grins*

In just this week alone, was talking to two friends about their parent's marriage breakdown, and how they're walking such a fine line between divorce and separation. And with people around me also theading such a fine line in their own relationship, I guess its been a week that ought to bring me much to reflect and ponder on. trouble is, I seem to be outta things to ponder on. With so many things going wrong in everyone's life right now, its starting to make me really jaded, so that I'm even losing my empathy for them. It used to be that I'd let my mood be affected by other people's bad news. Now, save for a few whom I'm particularly close to, everyone else's news just seem to be something else I chalk up in my archive, nothing more. Like reading it on the news, about the guy down in Bukit Timah, (where that certain brat stays, by the way) who did such and such and ended up in such and such a state.

Urgh.

Dammit. I think I'm just not getting enough attention lately.

No wait. That brat's been stalking me lately. So I've had plenty of attention.

Grins.

Dammit.

Now I really dunno what's wrong with me.

Grins.

I'd love to chalk it up to Man Utd losing, but I'm seriously afraid that's true. Cos to be affected by memories of my broken relationship is ok. To be affected by church is ok. To be affected by my dad's no-driving policy for me is totally in line. Hell, to even be affected by Paul's cat died could be counted as semi-valid. But I'll be damned if ever my mood really goes mad because of a stupid soccer match.

I start school on the 24th. Still no valid job, and still no sign of being paid by KC. I'm SO gonna wreck his wedding if he plays me out of my salary. Grins.

Sigh.

I need something to get angsty about. To get angry over. Or to obsess over.

Hmm... mebbe I'll meet someone in the LAN shop tmr...