Spanglish

Just reached home from watching the movie Spanglish, starring Adam Sandler and Paz Vega. Aside from the usual fare about just how good she looks, I guess there were actually a lotta other reasons why I really really liked the show. I guess at the crux of it, what really grabbed me about the movie was the loneliness of a man who found out that life seldom affords one the opportunity to pursue what one really wants, as responsibilities and past decisions inevitably weigh in on one's considerations. As I've incessantly moaned about in all my previous blogs, again this was the same recurring theme of someone who find that soulmate only when its too late, and he doesn't have the luxury of being able to seek out the happiness that he wants.

Yes, the same theme again about how in life and in love, good guys always finish last.

I guess if there was one thing I would have wanted from the movie more, it would have been that the attraction had forever remained silent, and never really voiced. The end product of voicing it out usually signals the end of even the friendship, and given how rare the chance is of finding a real friend, I'd much rather keep the friendship. But I guess to have been able to tell the one whom you truly love how you truly felt... would really have been something.

Sigh.

Why... why... why do nice guys always finish last?

Hehz... of course, I can't help but wonder if Paul still thinks of April wistfully. Cos if I were in his shoes, I'd surely wonder if I was wistful when I thought of her. I mean, I have no doubts that for the better part of it all, he's actually really happily settled down with Joz. And I really am happy for him. Just wondered if I were in his shoes, if I would have dared to ever tell April how I felt.

I mean, I would have been utterly devastated that she chose Ser Jin in the end. And I'm sure that contributed to him in the end distancing himself away from April, and eventually losing the friendship. And given just how rare is the chance of you finding someone whom you get along so well with, and understand so well, I think I'd much rather just keep the friendship.

I'm actually pretty proud of Paul in the end. If nothing else, at least I can say Joz knows what she wants when she got back with Paul. I see so many girls out there who don't even know the guy they're out with, or know why they're out with him. And having had the unique experience of being in such a relationship myself once, one big obstacle for me remains the need for the girl to know that I'm really who she wants to spend the rest of her life with.

Moral of the story - Don't get attached, Peng. The moment you do, the girl you've been searching for all your life will show up, and be available.

Grins.

Enough.

Singapore today announced that they're gonna build TWO casinos. And I don't even know what to feel about that. Or what to feel about the painful reality of the apathy of the Singaporeans. Everyone expressed disappointment and surprise, then moved on.

I'm watching Sound Of Music tomorrow. But I'm so dead broke now, I really dunno how man. Shit. I think my life really sucks now. No money, no girl, no brains... man, I'm so screwed.

Hehz...

Mebbe if I were even more brainless, I'd feel better. Cos then I won't even be aware of just how pathetic my life now is.

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted and each wish resign'd.
- Alexander Pope