My Fickle Life

“Its that time of the year again, when love and
courtship is in the air. When large amounts of money are spent to win hearts and
minds. When suitors try to win the hand of their lady fair, and sometimes,
relationships are tested, as upstarts try to win over someone already
attached.

Yes, I am talking about the elections.”

- Mr Brown

Hehz… it kindda cracked me up reading this. I seldom pay any attention to Mr Brown, but just chanced upon this piece he was writing.

Well, the 15 days of Chinese New Year are finally over. At least, today marks the last day. Ironically, the 15th is also traditionally known as the Lunar Valentines’ Day.

I spent the afternoon at a wedding in church camped behind the sanctuary where the organ is, catching up with Jing Jing. For those who are wondering what’s going on – We ended up there only because she was the organist. It wasn’t anything illicit. Hehz…

I think I have a pretty remarkable friendship with her, which is probably closest to the kind of relationship that I have with my sister. We’ve known each other since we were kids, and although I can hardly ever remember asking her out for drinks to catch up, nor long conversations over the phone (ever), somehow we’ve always felt like we were very close, and that we could understand each other. So even though I don’t have a clue about almost every aspect of her life in details, (I don’t even remember her brother’s name) our conversations always flowed, and we never seem to run out of things to talk about. Catching up on each other’s life is pretty easy, and she’s probably the only one I’d have no qualms abt confessing a crush I have on someone else to. I guess with old friends you catch up with only once or twice a year, you can afford to be candid with little or no consequence to your life.

Hehz… Everyone shd have such a friend or two. So convenient.

Grins.

Its been a really really great end to the week. Daoxing called me with some really great news, and it was the first time he sounded so happy in a long long time. Had a good time with Jing, then enjoyed worship prac with Yibin who’s playing for us now once a month. Working with such accomplished musicians is always such a torture, given how inadequate and therefore pressured I feel. But at the same time, it gives me a very steep learning curve. After that the worship team (more or less) hung around for dinner. The only blip was when I again missed the closing time for a haircut by 15 mins. After that I had a good session catching up with Serene. Then I came home to read the news that MIDDLESBOROUGH BEAT CHELSEA 3-0. Way to go Boro!!!!!!!!

The euphoria of a rare day where I actually enjoyed it so much still lingers, and somehow makes the melancholia of the early hours of the morning somewhat less. I don’t think I’ve felt this good throughout the whole CNY period as I do now. Hehz… what with news that the laptop and keyboard that we assumed to be stolen having both been found, the week that started in such bleak fashion has slowly unfurled into a good one.

People keep asking me what I want to do with my life. And when I say I don’t know, they ask me what is the one thing that I really like doing, and have a passion for.

Well, I like meeting up, catching up with people. I like being able to help people. I like being involved in people’s lives. If anyone knows how to turn this into a professional career that makes good money, pls don’t hesitate to call and tell me. There are times when I think that’s like saying “I like eating ice-cream and chocolates. If anyone knows how to turn this into a professional career that makes good money, pls don’t hesitate to call and tell me.” Then I’m reminded that so many people out there actually like to keep to themselves, and really can’t be bothered to keep up and keep in touch with people. There’re too many stories of friendships that have slowly grown cold and distant through neglect to prove me right already. So perhaps its something that really does take more effort than it seems on the outside, and it does take a legitimate passion to do so.

I just haven’t figured out a way to turn it into a proper form of living yet.

Hehz…

Ideas, anyone?

I found this song by accident on a website. And it really started to grow on me. So in commemoration of the Lunar Valentines’ Day, and the actual Valentines’ Day that’s in two days time, this song goes all to all those out there who join me in sharing the same sentiments.

Cheers!