Lotsa things have happened in the past few days. paul called to tell me his 3rd reps have been denied, I took my Advanced Driving Teory Test, had a pretty intensive session at cell on tuesday, Watched King Arthur with Paul (Stop whining, nut!!), had supper with a whole grp of my fellowship guys...

Yet in the midst of all this activity, I guess I really felt so lonely. So intense lonely. Silly huh?

Yeah, guess I am. Bloody Paul asked me what I'd do if I realised after all this while, or even more, that I still loved Grace. I'll bet anything he's now wondering if its meant to be Joz after all, no matter how he denies it. Grins. And mebbe I'm denying it too, but nowadays whenever I think of Grace, all I can think of is how she doesn't see what she's doing. Lotta pple have been telling me lately that Grace thinks I'm the one who let her down. Grins. Ah well. That figures. Probably what Andrew has been telling her. Muahahaha... But yeah, at least very much so now, I don't feel inclined to think that she's the one.

Been having this recurring dream of seeing myself dating someone... but I'm never able to see her face. I'm seeing myself through a third person perspective, and I see myself holding her hand... bringing her out... but I just can't see her face, or know who the heck she is!!!! But - I damned well know for sure it ain't Grace. There was this sense that I know her very well. That I'm very comfortable with her. But I just can't bloody make out who she is.

Sigh... how sad is that?

Got pretty drunk last night and had this stupid hangover the whole of today, couldn't think properly... and I had to go sit for my theory test. Sigh... help.

Aiyar, sick of whining abt the pathetic state of my love life liaos lah!!! I'm not hard up for a girl I guess. Mebbe I just like to whine abt how much I deserve the sympathies of pple ard me. I was right! Grace was wrong! She's the one who refused to sit down and talk to me!!! Dammit!!! Why is it that no nice girls are coming up to me? And all the girls I'm close to are basically not within consideration???

Bah.

Grins.

Think I'm still drunk.

Paul was harrassed by an MLM girl yesterday. Muahahahahaha.... Whoo hoo! MLM rocks!!! If we all did churches like MLM, mebbe it'll be a lot more successful. See how brainwashed they are???

*passes out*