Weekend Summary

Finished watching Jin Yong's "Yu Tian Tu Long Ji" some time this week.

*Long Sigh*

Sometimes watching TV can be so depressing, since the relationships always seem so easy. The guy always starts off having to choose a girl, which he bungles. Then the girl is seen to be the one who makes up her mind. Then with that assurance from the girl, the guy finally picks up the courage to go after her.

If only in life that were even remotely so man.

Its been another chapter of my life where I encounter the emotional turbulence of many a friend. One who has been told in no uncertain terms that she would rather that they remain just friends, one who seems to be clasping at straws to justify his current relationship, another who is obviously living in denial about the futility of carrying on a relationship... the list just piles up.

I mean, all my friends are individually more than capable as far as their IQ is concerned. As a matter of fact, for many of them, their EQ ranks pretty high as well. Which makes me wonder why so many are so willing to compromise in a r/s that falls so far short of what they had hoped it would be, choosing to run away from reality. Just last week over dinner with Eric and Weixiu, we spoke about the many marriages of our parents and others, the majority of which seem to be a loveless union, struggling to just maintain a facade that all is well in their lives. And I wonder if these people I've met up with and have been thinking about will just be the new generation that grows up to repeat the mistakes of their parents.

Sometimes TV can be so attractive. The good and bad r/s are so easily distinguishable. Every hero and heroine are so obviously in love, like-minded in all they do, and obviously meant for each other. They're also a couple utterly convinced that they've found the right one. Heck, even the evil couples that pop up in shows are just as compatible and like-minded. And somewhere within that surreal world where life and love seems so easy, is what I find so attractive about watching these shows. It also happens to be what frightens me into running away from it, given the disappointment it creates upon realising what a lie they are selling.

Just received word that April is engaged. The whole Paul saga aside, I just really hope she's really happy, instead of just convinced that she is. I guess in twenty years' time, we'll all have a better idea.

Hehz... the more I muse about it, the more I'm convinced so many of us are so good at deceiving ourselves into believing whatever we want to hear. Be it the promise of MLM marketing, to the Prosperity Gospel, to the salesman selling a "magic stone" to an old lady for $5k, the one on the outside always sees so clearly what a lie has been propagated, while the one inside the paradigm can often genuinely believe that he/she are the truly enlightened ones.

Hehz... it seems that whenever I whine about relationships first, the rest of the blog is a pretty morose entry.

I also met up with Ruth's mom over a drink one of the evenings, just to clear the air and meet up to talk. I think the whole session went pretty well. Henry and I watched 7 Swords (which officially goes down as one of the top three worst films I've ever watched in my entire life.), had lunch with Serene, practiced for worship, swam, visited my condo... etc. Yeah, he was on leave this whole week and we had the opportunity to spend some time together.

Shared with him some of my thoughts above. I guess he's right in a way also - when our r/s becomes something we use just to gratify ourselves and to allay our fears of loneliness, then we'll start coming up with the many reasons that we do for staying in or starting a hopeless r/s. We all start out with our ideals of how "we want to glorify and serve God"... but somewhere along the way it's become about how "I don't dare to be alone. He/she isn't that bad after all, I guess"...

Cell is starting a new series on the book of Psalms. We had a really hilarious day in cell, where even Zhiming pulled a classic on Weiqi. I just hope she doesn't take it the wrong way, since sometimes the way we joke about her BS can be a little overboard. That being said, I sometimes really don't blame the jokes, since she really can be a walking BS calamity. Hehz...

Chelsea beat Arsenal 2-1 in the Charity Shield. Dammit.

Meeting my aunt for Fish & co. again at lunch today. Another rich meal. Help. I really need to be on salads for the rest of the week man. Need to detox.

BIG TIME.