Its Monday morning. Again. And cell again left me troubled. Troubled because bible study inevitably presents such a black and white picture of the way the world is. Something that once I step out of church, I find myself unable to match up with reality. Why is that so? Why is it that inside church, at bible study, its so easy to have an alternative perspective, and be convinced that it’s the right perspective? Am I just slightly less gullible than the Christian who takes these platitudes into their weekday life, and actually believe its do-able? I who simply take it in on Sunday, but go back to the week and see how it doesn’t work – am I then less gullible? Or simply less teachable? Does my inability to maintain that perspective therefore mean I actually don’t love God, and so am unable to value Him and His ways above the realities of the world?

Talk abt a quarter-life crisis man. Here I am at 25, without a degree, without a job, without a driving license, without a girl, without any real confidence that I’ll graduate, without a clue what I’m gonna do with my life… I guess apart from being born without hands, feet, arms, legs, nose, eyes, etc… that’s abt as bad as my life can get… So who am I to stand on the pulpit and lead the congregation in worship, and tell them to let God take control of their life? My own life, in the mess that its in, seem to offer no indication at all that I’ve let God lead. And of course, I who once loved to advocate living a life that leaves no room for regret has ironically come to regret so much abt the past 4-5yrs of my life, which I absolutely blew.

Goodbye To Romance
Yesterday has been and gone
Tomorrow will I find the sun or will it rain
Everybody's having fun except me I'm the lonely one
I live in shame

I said hey, goodbye to romance. Yeah,
Goodbye to friends, I tell you
Goodbye to all the past
I guess that we'll meet, we'll meet in the end

I've been the king, I've been the clown
Now broken wings can't hold me down, I'm free again
The jester with the broken crown
It won't be me this time around to love in vain

I said hey, goodbye to romance. Yeah,
Goodbye to friends, I tell you
Goodbye to all the past
I guess that we'll meet, we'll meet in the end

And I feel the time is right although I know that you just might say to me
What you gonna do
What you gonna do

But I have to take this chance goodbye to friends and to romance
And to all of you
And to all of you

Come on now

I said hey, goodbye to romance. Yeah,
Goodbye to friends, I tell you
Goodbye to all the past
I guess that we'll meet, we'll meet in the end

And the weather is looking fine, and I think the sun will shine again
And I feel I've cleared my mind
All the past is left behind again

I said hey, goodbye to romance. Yeah,
Goodbye to friends, I tell you
Goodbye to all the past
I guess that we'll meet, we'll meet in the end.


What a great song man. I listened to the version by Lisa Loeb. Loved it. Its got absolutely nothing to do with romance, actually. Talks abt an end of things, and I think Lisa Loeb did an absolutely brilliant job with it. It’s a raining Monday morning, and this will be the song of the week for me.

Yeah.