You know, sometimes, you're just absolutely baffled by how you think you know someone pretty well now, only to realise you don't know the person at all. I mean, throw in the fact that you've sorta known him since you were born, shared every secret, every dream... even every joy, pain, glory and shame. Yet, after all this... I've come to realise that I still dunno myself at all. Grins.

Just a couple of days ago Paul nearly just broke down when again his ex decided to treat him like the way she treats just about everyone about her - like nothing. And he finally confessed that he's still not over her, even after more than 2 yrs. And that really got me thinking - So how big a bastard am I, that I really don't feel as strongly towards Grace, even though we spent 4 yrs together? Or is it just that Paul's a bigger moron than I am, that he's still unable to get over Jos? I mean, lotsa pple come up to me and said that they think I'm better off without Grace. Well, wait till they see Jos man... Grace would seem like an angel beside me, compared to Jos. Sorry Paul, the truth hurts... hehz...

So would I actually ever treat Grace like Paul treats Jos, if ever she tries to come back to my life? I like to think Grace has a bit more backbone, and even if not, she still has Andrew. So either way, I don't see her coming back into my life unless she has a major fallout with Andrew. But would I allow her back? I mean, I'm trying to picture how hard it is for Paul to turn Jos away if she calls him up, crying, and says she needs a friend. And I think - yeah, I'd probably also agree to be there for her. But I think I'm probably a lot more bitter about my breakup than Paul was, so I think in a big way, that resentment will actually help me stay away from getting back with her.

Dammit. Now I'm the bad guy. Hehz... sigh... back to my mugging, I guess. Lotsa deadlines these 2 weeks to meet. Man Utd just crashed out of the Euro Cup due to sheer stupidity. Help.