Shit man. Just when I was beginning to feel a little better. 10 mins ago I just got a msg from my friend. Her 15 yr old cousin took his own life, and now she's telling me she's angry at God for taking away someone she cares for. 15 yrs old!!!! Dying from cancer is one thing, taking his own life at a tender 15 is another altogether...

Guess its always depressing to hear news like this. But to think that just when I was beginning to feel a little better - sent Xianghui off this morning, Paul's best friend is finally back, and I've finally cleared my tests for the week... I get a piece of news like this. Just how am I to react to this? Get depressed again? Thank God it ain't MY cousin? I really can't seem to find anything to give thanks for, when I hear news like this... And how am I to go comofrt my friend? I guess the right thing is to not say anything but just listen... but what do I do when she's demanding answers? Guess I just don't feel like I'm helping when she keeps demanding and I can only reply with my own silence...

I don't understand my own reaction, at the same time... I'm not very close to this friend, nor do I know the cousin personally. But I guess news of how a 15 yr old can choose to snuff out his own life, especially when its someone whom I know by association, can be a lot more striking. I'd love to tell him that whatever shit he feels he's in, it can't be as bad as what me and Paul are going through. I'd love to tell him that at 15, his life hasn't even started yet... much less even considering ending it. I don't even know if he's Christian. So what if he is? He still chose to take his own life, didn't he?

Ah well. Just needed to come online to unwind a little, and work through my thoughts.